Either things happened or I happened to feel the change within………seems like the winds shifted!
While the hustle continued with me getting stressed for not finding the house……….lot of depressed feelings and felt very low, crying in between the nights and self doubting myself as I took another leap of faith after Mango’s Kitchen that is not going back to full time job but doing more of freelance works and Bengaluru becoming more and more expensive….will I be able to survive or should I just go back home???????????
I know it is always a step by stey process but the struggle, the hustle was never easy in my life but I always believed that defientely there is a ray of hope which always did happen.
Had to compromise on few things but non – negotiable is good vibes and serenity whether it is work, home, networking or even the dating part.
Then, through a friend got chance to visit Varnasi and Gaya. That trip made a shift in me which I realised after starting meditation and sudarshana kriya from Art of Living through another friend who forced me to do. Never knew but it did give me that peace in pieces again and yes, I am doing it everyday now as part of routine, let’s see.
After coming back, I didn’t have a house still and again same feeling but hook or crook I had to find a house coz I am done crying and yes, I did find my cozy rented home. “I knew this but we tend to ignore, it is only when I decide and do, things will definetly happen, so it is all me”
Immediately after finalizing the house, flew to my hometown Visakhapatnam and realised how much I missed that place, the beaches, those clean roads and what not. The beaches and waterbodies are my calling and undoubtedly the bliss on earth for me!
Met my folks at hometown, loved being in my home with peace after long as I couldn’t visit hometown like I wanted to for almost two years but was meeting parents wherever I can.
Things on my work front also started getting better and yes something is happening but the good one this time!
Signing off……………….Mango
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